Hopelessness
An unintended experiment reinforced the hypo-dopamine diagnosis
By running out of alprazolam, I unintentionally found more evidence that some symptoms are due to low dopamine activation.
Note to self—from six years ago
I found a six-year-old document in which, I evaluated my situation and options at the time. It is interesting to see what has changed and what has not changed.
I’m suicidal, dirt poor, and asking for help: what will you do?
Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain killed themselves. Everyone says, “Ask for help. You are not alone!” I need help, I am alone, and I feel suicidal: you say I am lying.
Why should I even try?
Despair and hopelessness are the same feeling. It causes me to doubt myself with questions such as, “Why try?” and, “What’s the point?” Struggling against those feelings so I can do things is ever-present. To overcome the feelings, I use rationality, “You should try to ask for help because people have promised to help you.” … Read more
A new (minor-ish) problem; and will you donate your TIME?
If you will help me write and publish (online), I can get the support I need to recover.