Anxiety
If my arm were broken, you would help me carry things
My medical conditions–depression, generalized anxiety disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and panic disorder–prevent me from accomplishing some tasks that I would easily be able to accomplish if I were healthy. Among the many things that I have not been able to accomplish, if I had help accomplishing one of them, I would immediately start earning more money. My life will not improve with help from other people.
Some improvements
I bought two weeks of modafinil, and it is already helping me. Combined with the positive effects of the alprazolam, the whole of the effects is greater than the sum of the effects of the individual medicines.
I am the shadow of who I once was
The events of the last five years have changed what used to be an important aspect of my character.
Towards optimism, day 7 of 21
The optimism exercise continues, and it is more challenging today than before.
The anxiety subsides, the depression rises
Now that I am better able to handle my anxiety, my depression symptoms are my major obstacle. I need medicine to help me, but my options are few and the medicine is expensive.
A small dose of alprazolam and I am much better
Because of the war on drugs and because we under serve the health care needs of poor people, I have been unable to get the medicine I need. After I was able to get one more medicine I need, the positive effects on my life were immediate and dramatic.