Be pro-social
The last three-and-one-half weeks have been the worst of my life. It started with a total emotional breakdown during which I questioned whether I was having a schizophrenic break with reality. I was not. Things were so bad and so unbelievable, however, that I think it was appropriate to question whether what I was perceiving … Read more
I am locked out of Facebook. I cannot access various security keys for various email accounts. I cannot fix my WordPress problems because this computer and connection are too slow. Gmail, unencrypted is probably the best.
This is painful to write about because it is painful to think about, which is why I must write about it. I regularly rediscover that when I write about things and send them away, then my mind can let go of the thoughts. I need to let go of this thought because it is too … Read more
Despite having some anxiety medication (and lots of side effects), it took me over 24 hours to overcome my anxiety and face the “horrible” things in the common area, like children, and get to the computer to try to do something, anything, for my life. I do not know what to say. “game over; I … Read more
I used what little strength I had to get to the hospital today. They gave me 3 days of Effexor and nothing else. I took the first Effexor. Here’s the issue: I took that Effexor on total blind faith that somehow things will get dramatically better very quickly. If I take these pills, if I … Read more
The only good news is that I feel that I might finally pass out from lack of eating and drinking and at least that will prevent me from hearing the crying children.
Even if I could describe my current state and how it has changed in the last 18 hours, you would not believe me or you would not be able to understand me. I only slept about 30 minutes last night. I think it is 1 pm here (the clock on the computer is always wrong … Read more
My hands are shaking, which makes it difficult to type on this dirty Arabic-English keyboard of this shitty computer crammed into the corner of the hostel. I reach for the delete key, but I hit the print screen key and some crappy screen capture malware program opens on this officially unofficial version of Windows 7. … Read more
Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs is brilliant, and one of the more brilliant things is what is not in his hierarchy: survival. The sum of many needs is survival, but survival itself is not a need. This is prescient because he did his research years before Watson and Crick discovered how genes are inherited and many … Read more
Long story, made shorter: since my motherboard is broken, I do not currently have the ability to decrypt emails or use RetroShare. In theory, I could recover the ability. I think I prefer Gmail, [email protected] for communication. Facebook is certainly the lowest on my list. Comments on Facebook or my website are nearly impossible for … Read more