- My injuries are invisible to other people: severe depression, generalized anxiety disorder, complex post traumatic stress disorder, and panic disorder.
- People understand visible health problems: broken bones or influenza.
- Some health problems are invisible, such as diabetes, but people can understand them by accessing cultural knowledge.
- I tried to make my health problems visible.
- I tried to help people understand my invisible injuries.
- As of April 2017, I accept that I failed.
Honesty and radical openness: “It’s too much!”
- At 10 years old, I vowed to not lie.
- By 20 years old, my childish ideal had evolved: I aspired to not lie, to tell the truth, and to be open.
- For 31 years, I have devoted significant resources to developing and practicing this ideal.
- When trying to make my health problems visible and helping people understand my invisible injuries, I was honest and radically open.
- It failed. A common response was, “It’s too much!”
- My ideal of truth, non-lying, and openness contributed to the destruction of my health and my life.
- I shall change this ideal.
- I have no predictions about the process or result of changing this major foundation of my character.