An assortment of facts and issues, in no particular order:
- Six more days of venlafaxine
- One day of diazepam
- Shelter through 10 December 2014
- US$130.61 cash and PayPal
- US$56 per week help from friends
- Fixed most of the problems with my website but I do not know what caused the original problem: I do not want to host with GoDaddy.com anymore. I wish I could afford to move to a higher quality web host and have an SSL certificate for the privacy of my readers.
- My sleep schedule is terrible. If I did not have to ration my anti-anxiety medications, then my sleep would be better, which would reduce my anxiety, which would help my productivity: a virtuous cycle.
- Because I ran out of modafinil many days ago (two weeks?), my mood has been profoundly sad and my productivity has been much lower: a destructive cycle.
- In the process of fixing my website, I made some improvements. Most of the improvements are non-obvious but they will help generate more traffic and make it a little easier to navigate.
- I migrated some older pages into WordPress, so now it will be easier to find the pages and link to them. I am trying to finish moving all of my old pages into WordPress because it makes it easier to manage the pages and to potentially make money from ads.
- I have now twice tried to fix my banner ad problems. Each time, it initially seemed as if I fix the problem, but both times I was wrong. I did fix a small problem that I did not know existed, so I did make some progress. Nevertheless, this unresolved problem is wasted money: every day that this problem is not resolved, that is money that I am not earning. Many people believe that my ideas are too speculative, but this issue is cold, hard facts: I have tons of traffic to my photos but I do not earn any money from the banner adds that are displayed.
- One of my goals is to move information from Facebook to here and to add more documents such as emails
- Based on the suggestion of a friend, I will attempt to organize the information in the form of FAQs. I have already done a lot of work configuring WordPress, and I do not see any technical obstacles to implementing this idea. With luck, it will make it easier for people to understand the myriad of complex issues.
- The last few days have reaffirmed that–emotionally–I cannot survive like this anymore. The pain is too much. With the help paying for shelter, I can physically survive for another three weeks, but during most hours of most days, I wish for death. I need a substantial change, and I need it immediately.