everything goes better with a kiss

i don’t think it ever emptied.
i haven’t cried for a long time

parting is an incomplete process.
one must leave a little
and take a little.

i know what characteristics i want in a her
i know i must met her criteria

i have convinced myself of love when none existed

i watched a friend’s eyes today
hers look like mine feel
abundantly tired of seeing what they see

i had forgotten what a big deal it was to you
and hence, to me

this moment is at once surprising and anticipated
it was going to happen
most things in life are predictable

i am missing everyone and no one.
i think about Lluby and Marcia in the same thought

crazy giggles and
beautiful smiles and
perpetually perfect eyebrows

it’s not about remorse
or apathy
or hate
or disappointment