To stay sick, I need MXN$191.67 (US$10.36) a day just for medicines. To heal, I need MXN$5100 total for medicines, which is less than the cost of 27 days of being sick. That is a compelling reason to support my
Another reason to support my recovery is that I am miserable. I hate being alive. For over six years, I have thought to myself, “I wish I were dead,” every day. I want people to support my recovery and not merely support my current, nightmarish life and condemn me to live in unspeakable pain.
Of course, suffering is not a compelling reason to help a person. Money is compelling.
Path comparison
| Path of sickness | Path of healing | |
| Coping medicines | $191.67 a day | $0.00 |
| Vitamins & amino acids | $36.80 a day | $36.80 a day |
| Healing medicines | Not applicable | $5100 total, < 27 days |
| Quality of life | Endless misery & pain | 30+ days of terror |
| Life expectancy | 43 years (I’m 43) | 77 years |
| Ability to work | No | Yes, a lot |
| Lodging | Limited to 1 room in 1 hotel $250/night | Almost anywhere |
| Friends and relationships | No, I’m “irritable” | Yes, I’m “gentle” |
| Food costs (money & time) | High | Reasonable |
| Quality of diet | Unhealthy | Probably healthy |
| Risk of theft | High: Robbed over 22 times | Normal |
| Risk of assault | High: at least three incidents | Normal |
| Risk of sexual assault | High: three incidents | Normal |
The balance sheet
Assets
I have US$64.34 (MXN$1190.29) and MXN$112.50. $1190.29 + $112.50 = $1302.79. I have 0.5 liters of milk and 288 calories of amino acids to mix in the milk, but no other food.
Liabilities
Today, I need to buy modafinil, venlafaxine, three amino acids, and bupropion. $748 + $129 + $314.76 + $289 = $1480.76.
The bottom line: I’m in the red
$1302.79 – $1480.76 = -177.97 and a protein drink.
Supporting my recovery is less expensive than supporting my suffering.
