I have not had enough improvement. I do not know how I am still standing.
- Lodging through 10 December 2014
- About US$90 cash and PayPal
- Medicine:
- Do not have:
- Aspirin or anything to deal with headaches and pain
- Modafinil
- Alprazolam
- Anti-diarrhea
- Venlafaxine: three doses of 75mg left. I should take 150mg per day, but I cut my dosage in half to delay serotonin withdrawal syndrome.
- Diazepam: 10mg left, 15mg per day is normal, but I have not taken any for many days, so I might as well have none.
- Do not have:
- Writing about my dad, Dan Hogan, was emotionally painful but necessary. I have had a raging headache for over 30 hours–and no medicine to treat it.
- As an indicator of my will power and mood: for the first two months here, my bathing was regular. But I have not taken a shower in a week. I want one, but I keep working on other things instead–trying to survive.
- No progress on banner ads.
- The list of things I need to work through is insanely long: I am certainly not going to resolve the events of the last five years during the next seventeen days.
- Still fixing things on my website, including things that GoDaddy broke. (My .htaccess file, bastards.)