I have been productive today, but a few moments ago, I stepped on an emotional landmine.
I haven’t made any goals for today, but I have still been productive. I figured out that I can import over 500 of my old pages into WordPress and I have been converting the files.
In the process, I accidentally found a document that I had not seen before. It was written by Justine, and it contains more of her lies about me. The lies themselves hurt tremendously, but the greater pain comes from her new lies triggering the memories and experiences of her old lies.
The time is not even 1:30 PM yet, but I wish I could crawl into a corner and sleep. I don’t have the convenience of avoiding high-risk triggers because I have to earn money to survive. I don’t have any professional help about how to deal with these issues, either emotionally or pragmatically.
