Saturday sadness

It’s time to inventory my medicines. ഞാന് use the Medisafe app to schedule my medications so I can reduce biochemistry peaks and valleys. The effect is fantastic. It has real-time auto-updating inventory, and it exports reports. The process of having to keep an exact inventory, calculate how much money I need, beg on the streets, and beg online cost me about five hours today. If I didn’t have to beg for money so regularly, I would be able to spend a lot more time improving my life. ദാരിദ്ര്യം ചെലവേറിയത്. ദയവായി, please, please, send me a small amount of money on a schedule. ദയവായി. ദയവായി, I’m cold, in pain, and miserable. ദയവായി.

What I have

  1. കാണപ്പെടുന്ന / പഴയ (500 mg), as needed, 0.5 pills
  2. Clonazepam (2 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, 3 times a day, 34.25 pills, see notes, താഴെ
  3. Indomethacin (75 mg), as needed, 14 pills, see notes, താഴെ
  4. Loperamide (2 mg), as needed, 6 pills left
  5. സൌഹൃതങ്ങള് (200 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, 3 times a day, 5 pills left = 2 ദിവസങ്ങളിൽ
  6. രനിതിദിനെ (150 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, once a day, 14 pills left, see notes, താഴെ
  7. വെംലഫക്സിനെ (75 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, twice a day, 44 pills
  8. Vitamin B100 Complex HP Tablet, എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, twice a day, 21 pills
  9. Wellbutrin SR (150 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, 3 times a day, 22 pills = 7 ദിവസങ്ങളിൽ

Nothing left

  1. അല്പ്രജൊലമ് (2 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, 4 times a day
  2. Ibuprofen or naproxen sodium, as needed
  3. ലൊരതദിനെ (10 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, once a day
  4. ഒമെപ്രജൊലെ (20 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, once a day
  5. Valium (10 mg), എല്ലാ ദിവസവും, twice a day

Notes about forced changes

I have been less productive because I have been out of അല്പ്രജൊലമ് for a long time because it is a source of dopamine. With the medicine, I might have salvaged the situation with the community that was helping me. I could have earned MXN$1000 by editing an academic paper, but I was unable to finish: I would have accomplished more with alprazolam. Poverty is a trap: I’m too poor to treat my symptoms and have security, so when I have a chance to make money, I am less capable of earning money. I ran out of ഡയസെപാം yesterday. I am substitutingclonazepam for both: it is less effective and has more side effects.

Indomethacin is an inferior NSAID and substituting for ibuprofen or naproxen.

സൌഹൃതങ്ങള്: when I miss just one dose, my life is worse. If I run out, I don’t know what will happen.

ഒമെപ്രജൊലെ: I ran out yesterday. I took ranitidine this morning instead. It is inferior, and my stomach hurts right now.

Wellbutrin (bupropion) is the medicine I recently added that has made it possible to for me to try to teach English (nothing yet) and to try to edit a paper. If I run out of it, I will be catatonic again. The cheapest price is on Monday, so I should buy itthis തിങ്കളാഴ്ചbefore I run out.

ലൊരതദിനെ helps me to cope with the car exhaust. I have had a non-stop cough for longer than I can remember.

Begging and shame

Please support my recovery by sending a little money on a schedule.

I usually feel worse than this picture, but I must put on a happy face or people will be more afraid of me.

I’m miserable every day. ദയവായി, far away, I have friends, my family is abusive and has the ability to help me but they have said they want me to suffer, and local people float in and out of my life, but I have been isolated and extremely lonely for five years. ദയവായി help me to escape this hell, please. ദയവായി.

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