- Background
- I have biological health problems that cause depression, anxiety, and panic attacks.
- I have had these problems for many years.
- I cannot survive on $3 per day.
- I cannot heal without shelter, food, and medicine.
- I am on a hunger strike: no food and no water. Unless you help me to survive, I will die sometime between December 21 and Christmas 2017.
- Four months ago, my mother unexpectedly offered to pay for my shelter. But, this was a false hope: she never sent any money and the rejection is painful.
- Two days after my mother contacted me, a friend unexpectedly contacted me and said that he would pay for my recovery. It was the most generous offer I have received: probably in my entire life.
- My life is extremely complicated and strange, so he naturally had some incorrect information and ideas about my life. I spent a lot of time addressing his misunderstandings, and he sent me US$48.40 while we emailed each other.
- Then he suddenly and unexpectedly changed his mind.
- Especially in conjunction with my mother’s false hope, his offer and sudden retreat were extremely painful.
- In the last eight years, some people have been incredibly kind to me. I have experienced selflessness that I didn’t know was possible.
- But most of my experiences have involved breaking my trust. These two episodes of false hope are clear examples of someone seeking my trust, then destroying it.
- It’s impossible for me to trust that the world cares if I am in pain or if I survive.
- New topic: recently, three friends were using automatic payments to send me $3 per day. Because this hunger strike will either end with death or with enough money for my survival, I cancelled the automatic payments. I cannot endure this life anymore.
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[Correction: a previous version of this post incorrectly said he didn’t send me any money.]
