Gaming as coping; my compulsion to fairness

Tyrant chat

I played Tyrant, an online game, to try to cope with my life. But it is a social game, all societies have inequities, and I am compelled to fix inequities. A moth drawn to the flame and then consumed by it. When I played, I often wrote about problems in the game’s subculture. Some people … Read more

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Serotonin withdrawal syndrome update, and meditation as coping

Fight the power. Hunter Hogan at HunterThinks.com

For completeness, not because I think it affects anyone other than myself, an update on my serotonin withdrawal syndrome. The vertigo changes in intensity: sometimes it is mild enough that I ignore it, other times it so severe that I have trouble walking. I have acclimated to the ringing in my ears. It is part … Read more

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My grandmother is sick: I am worried, sad, and upset

Grandma and Grandpa are still in love

I have not seen my grandmother since May 2010. One of the casualties of the ARDC’s illegal actions and of my inability to recover is that I have lost all of my family relationships. I cut my dad out of my life, but I have not been able to spend time with my grandma because … Read more

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Ambitions

Fight the power. Hunter Hogan at HunterThinks.com

I want the world to be a safer, less violent, kinder, and happier place. If I were to heal, some categories I would want to work on:

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Even in online games, I am compelled to act

In 2010, as a coping mechanism, I played an online game, Caesary. Players can join leagues, and most do because there are advantages within the game when in a league. Leagues have different roles with different league powers, such as kicking a player out of the league. I was in a unique league that instead … Read more

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The accidental ascetic

My girlfriend on my inflatable bed

The burden of gifts My sister loved Christmas because she loved opening the mounds of presents. I hated it. My mother and her parents loved Christmas. Their goal each year was to have a heap of presents with a wider radius than was the tree tall. To have more presents to open, if a toy … Read more

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