A random interaction caused me to realize that I could easily lie to people here in Egypt. I could easily be a “con man”, and if I did that, I could have all of the money I needed.
I haven’t lied to people here however, and I was surprised at how easy it would be for me to manipulate people to get what I wanted. I was surprised because I have not considered trying to trick people into giving me money or whatever it is that I want or need.
I am also confused, frustrated, and hurt that I am holding on to my ideals even though I am literally risking my life by refusing to manipulate people: even though I could do it and no one would ever know about it.
I do not understand why people refuse to support my attempt to maintain my integrity and to not use people. Why are people essentially punishing me for good behavior? Why?
