Time is running out
I meant to include one more realization in the video. In brief:
I have 21 unread, unopened emails, and I now know why I have balked at opening them: I can’t handle any more unhealthy criticism, whether intentional or accidental. I am broken. I’m not fragile. I’m not vulnerable. I’m broken. For each email, I am 90—99% sure that the email does NOT contain any unhealthy criticism, but I am not 100% sure. I cannot take risks, even small risks, so they remain unopened.